I do believe that going through a divorce is worse than a frickin breakup because at least with a breakup you have two folks who kinda maybe don't know that they might still want to be together and kinda still don't want to be together but whatthefuckever lets be done with this shit. And then they have break up sex.
Divorce is different in my case, cause I know damn well I don't want that nigga back. Fuck him. I don't know about other couples going through a divorce, but uhmmm i'm not fucking that man with another womans pussy. So no divorce sex for me. It's just that dang, you don't realize how much you can truly truly dislike someone until this point. And nope, I have to admit, I have been an idiot for years and someone out there actually believes i'm an idiot too. Is he crazy? I'm not dumb sir, you don't believe me? Just wait, I can show you better than I can tell you.
He actually told me how he tells everyone how proud of me he is and how much i've grown over the years into a spectacular woman who he knows will get her doctorate blah blah blah. Shut up. Whatcho want??
On that note, I officially broke off my non relationship relationship with "Lemme See" at 9:22 am MST. He wanted some good bye sex, I said no. As I was typing I realized I must have lost my damn mind. I won't get dick again until July prolly, when I get home and get to see "Lazy Love" and that is a big MAYBE. Because, he might be seeing someone, and I don't fuck with folks that have somebody. Bad karma at the highest level.
So either way, I sent "Lemme See" a text at 11:12 pm MST letting him know that I am trippppppppiiiiiiinnnnnnn. I want the dick, absolutely want the dick. Bring on the dick.
My sister-in-law told me that I think like a married woman and not a single woman, I didn't know that. But that is the only way I know how to think since I'd been with Mr.____ since I was 19 (I'm 40...shhhh). But imma change that shit. Yep, bring on the dick. Hell I might meet the next Mr. Big Dick on the plane on the way to get my final bit of ass from that fucker with the awesome dick LOL.
So oh yeah, so I'm actually going through my divorce. Mr.____told me that if I change my mind then don't show up for the lawyer meeting and he will call it off. Nope, I'm going. Big girl panties and all. This town is NOT big enough for the both of us while we are still married, imma need that piece of paper so he and I can officially do what the fuck we want to do and that's that.
I'm listening to my kids do their crazy ass midnight pork n bean eating fest with the bad broken can opener right now. I SWEAR if there are dents in my cabinet I will be hurting a teenager in his sleep.
My favorite song by Usher right now is Lil Freak http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNVNzRzDt-k that is kind of how I am right now. I will probably fall asleep touching myself to this music. And the chick in the red/black pants is HOT!!! Bring on the dick...
Marie
